Here I am, one and a half years later, with the beginnings of another Tyler/Caroline story, despite this pairing appearing to be even more unpopular now than it was when I first wrote for them. After a quick perusal of my friends list, I see by what's being put up on tvd_fic
that a certain other
Caroline ship, which shall remain unnamed on this journal, is more popular. I guess I really am writing this pretty much for myself this time round.
I'm terrified and excited to be writing again. Apart from a few ideas jotted down, I haven't written anything since forever and I'm dying to get back to it. I miss it very much. Yes, it was agony at times--most times, to be honest, because writing is really, really hard--but it was so satisfying and gratifying to complete a creative project.
However, I seem to have hit an obstacle before I've even started: a playlist. I don't have one. I usually have one. Music is very
important to me. It's a huge source of inspiration. While it may be the events of S4 spurring me on to write a story, music will keep me in the writing zone. It will help me focus. It will keep the story happening in my head, even when I'm not actively writing, I'll be listening to it on the way to and from work, while I'm running errands, etc., and most importantly, if I get blocked.
For A Pain That I'm Used To
I had two playlists and I'd listen to whichever one suited the scene I was writing. One was all
Depeche Mode--this should come as no surprise to anyone familiar with their music considering I used one of their songs for the title of the story. There were just so many
songs of theirs that worked for T/C. In fact, the DM playlist I created for them was called T/C+DM=OT3. It was perfect. The other one was, well, I'd rather not say. Guilty pleasures, ahem. With this new story, I seem to be looking to DM to supply the music once again. Perhaps because they were such a huge part of my writing for T/C in the past, I feel a pull to go back to them for music? The only other songs I've found that suit the story are (SURPRISE) Dave Gahan's (the lead singer of DM) solo stuff.
Part of me wants to wait a bit before I start writing because there's a new DM album coming out on March 26th and it may contain the most perfect songs for the story. But another part of me doesn't want to wait. I have a stretch of time available to me right now where I am free to write without most of real life interfering and I want to take advantage of it. (The track titles, though. Gah! A few of them seem like they have potential to be perfect.)
Or am I just procrastinating because I am
that scared to write again? Possibly.