nocturnalforays

I'm exhausted. In transcribing the notes and expanding on them, I ended up writing parts of scenes and dialogue all day as inspiration and ideas struck. I now have 12 single-spaced pages in Word and 4,848 words. A lot of those words are notes and reminders for me, ponderings on plot possibilities, character traits and examinations--had a 1000 watt light bulb go off in my head earlier this afternoon regarding Klaus and his motivations and actions. It's helped with making so many things fall into place not just fic-wise, but canon-wise, too. That or I'm just handwaving shit so the show and my story will both make sense.

I imagine more than half of those words will be discarded, but they'll be replaced with the actual story. It was a good day, all in all, but I keep forgetting to eat when I write, which is why I'm about to have dinner so very late in the day--or should I say night?

I have no title for the Tyler/Caroline story. I'm still not sure where to set part of the story--a very important part in which I want to create a specific mood and tone. (It's mostly for me. I doubt anyone else will notice what I'm trying to achieve with that sequence of events.) And I have a couple of only vaguely appropriate playlists.

BUT! I have transcribed three and a half pages of notes which turned into three single-spaced Word document pages equalling just over 1600 words as I expanded on the ideas I'd jotted down, so surely that's something to be positive about. Right?

Here I am, one and a half years later, with the beginnings of another Tyler/Caroline story, despite this pairing appearing to be even more unpopular now than it was when I first wrote for them. After a quick perusal of my friends list, I see by what's being put up on tvd_fic that a certain other Caroline ship, which shall remain unnamed on this journal, is more popular. I guess I really am writing this pretty much for myself this time round.

I'm terrified and excited to be writing again. Apart from a few ideas jotted down, I haven't written anything since forever and I'm dying to get back to it. I miss it very much. Yes, it was agony at times--most times, to be honest, because writing is really, really hard--but it was so satisfying and gratifying to complete a creative project.

However, I seem to have hit an obstacle before I've even started: a playlist. I don't have one. I usually have one. Music is very important to me. It's a huge source of inspiration. While it may be the events of S4 spurring me on to write a story, music will keep me in the writing zone. It will help me focus. It will keep the story happening in my head, even when I'm not actively writing, I'll be listening to it on the way to and from work, while I'm running errands, etc., and most importantly, if I get blocked.

For A Pain That I'm Used To I had two playlists and I'd listen to whichever one suited the scene I was writing. One was all Depeche Mode--this should come as no surprise to anyone familiar with their music considering I used one of their songs for the title of the story. There were just so many songs of theirs that worked for T/C. In fact, the DM playlist I created for them was called T/C+DM=OT3. It was perfect. The other one was, well, I'd rather not say. Guilty pleasures, ahem. With this new story, I seem to be looking to DM to supply the music once again. Perhaps because they were such a huge part of my writing for T/C in the past, I feel a pull to go back to them for music? The only other songs I've found that suit the story are (SURPRISE) Dave Gahan's (the lead singer of DM) solo stuff.

Part of me wants to wait a bit before I start writing because there's a new DM album coming out on March 26th and it may contain the most perfect songs for the story. But another part of me doesn't want to wait. I have a stretch of time available to me right now where I am free to write without most of real life interfering and I want to take advantage of it. (The track titles, though. Gah! A few of them seem like they have potential to be perfect.)

Or am I just procrastinating because I am that scared to write again? Possibly.

Title: Seeing Red
Chapter: 1/1
Word Count: 2,500
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline
Ratings: NC-17 should cover my ass
Spoilers: Up to and including S03E06
Summary: Tyler just wants to party on Halloween but Caroline has other things in mind.
Disclaimer: I own nothing

Author's Note: Since the only proper Halloween episode we ever had was in season one, I wanted to write something fluffy and fun for Tyler and Caroline. For the purpose of this story, I’m pretending like S03E09 won’t happen—those of you have read the S03E09 synopsis will understand. So consider this story to follow canon only up to and including S03E06. After S03E09 airs, I’m sure this fic will have no place in TVD’s actual timeline.

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Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Chapter: 8/8
Word Count: 3,900
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline, Stefan, Jules, Matt, Elena, Carol, Damon
Rating: Mostly R for language but verges on NC-17 for sexual situations.
Spoilers: None unless you haven't watched past S02E14
Summary: After all the lies, secrets, and betrayals are brought to light, both Tyler and Caroline have to deal with the aftermath. In their ongoing struggle to come to terms with and adapt to their new lives as supernatural creatures, will they make amends and renew their friendship, and could it ever turn into something more?
Disclaimer: I own nothing

Author's Note 1: In regards to the previous chapter and its intended effectiveness...oh you know, the damned sexytimes. After having spent what probably amounts to weeks, if not months, agonising over chapter seven, it was hard to maintain perspective and objectivity (if I ever had any to begin with) as to whether or not it was any good (and frankly, the same can be said of this entire story). I honestly couldn’t tell anymore. I guess that’s what a beta is for—ought to get one if I write another fanfic. It wasn’t a contrived effort to get responses or assurances, although I am grateful for any and all feedback I get. I was terrified that it would be disappointing, so thank you to everyone who left a comment telling me otherwise. I know I keep saying it, but it’s true: you have NO IDEA how much your kind, encouraging, and thoughtful comments have meant to me.


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Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Chapter: 7/8
Word Count: 5,800
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline, Stefan, Jules, Matt, Elena, Carol, Damon
Rating: Mostly R for language but verges on NC-17 for sexual situations.
Spoilers: None unless you haven't watched past S02E14
Summary: After all the lies, secrets, and betrayals are brought to light, both Tyler and Caroline have to deal with the aftermath. In their ongoing struggle to come to terms with and adapt to their new lives as supernatural creatures, will they make amends and renew their friendship, and could it ever turn into something more?
Disclaimer: I own nothing

Author's Note: It's either sexy or it isn't. Whatever. I don't care anymore. I'm just tired of the damned thing and want to post the last two chapters so I can move on with my life, damn it!


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Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Chapter: 6/8
Word Count: 5,900
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline, Stefan, Jules, Matt, Elena, Carol, Damon
Rating: Mostly R for language but verges on NC-17 for sexual situations.
Spoilers: None unless you haven't watched past S02E14
Summary: After all the lies, secrets, and betrayals are brought to light, both Tyler and Caroline have to deal with the aftermath. In their ongoing struggle to come to terms with and adapt to their new lives as supernatural creatures, will they make amends and renew their friendship, and could it ever turn into something more?
Disclaimer: I own nothing


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Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Chapter: 5/8
Word Count: 5,400
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline, Stefan, Jules, Matt, Elena, Carol, Damon
Rating: Mostly R for language but verges on NC-17 for sexual situations.
Spoilers: None unless you haven't watched past S02E14
Summary: After all the lies, secrets, and betrayals are brought to light, both Tyler and Caroline have to deal with the aftermath. In their ongoing struggle to come to terms with and adapt to their new lives as supernatural creatures, will they make amends and renew their friendship, and could it ever turn into something more?
Disclaimer: I own nothing


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Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Chapter: 4/8
Word Count: 4,600
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline, Stefan, Jules, Matt, Elena, Carol, Damon
Rating: Mostly R for language but verges on NC-17 for sexual situations.
Spoilers: None unless you haven't watched past S02E14
Summary: After all the lies, secrets, and betrayals are brought to light, both Tyler and Caroline have to deal with the aftermath. In their ongoing struggle to come to terms with and adapt to their new lives as supernatural creatures, will they make amends and renew their friendship, and could it ever turn into something more?
Disclaimer: I own nothing


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Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Chapter: 3/8
Word Count: 3,800
Characters/Pairings: Tyler/Caroline, Stefan, Jules, Matt, Elena, Carol, Damon
Rating: Mostly R for language but verges on NC-17 for sexual situations.
Spoilers: None unless you haven't watched past S02E14
Summary: After all the lies, secrets, and betrayals are brought to light, both Tyler and Caroline have to deal with the aftermath. In their ongoing struggle to come to terms with and adapt to their new lives as supernatural creatures, will they make amends and renew their friendship, and could it ever turn into something more?
Disclaimer: I own nothing


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